hi diary. im so not awesome today. i fucking hate marco. i cant stand being friends with the guy, but i cant not because hes one of few friends. im fucking sick of being a socially adept weirdo. people ask who i am in class and its mortifying. i cant do this anymore. i wish i could just fall asleep forever and never wake up. either way, id never actually pass as a real man. i hate being ugly. i miss him so bad. it's so embarassing.